For her courage and honesty, they removed Lyle from her care. Frankly, this response tells us that they "don't care" and do not want the truth. Grandma had not read Lily's autopsy because she told me that she had enough on her plate without trying to take more in.
I now realize she, too, was very stressed over all of this, and who wouldn't have been? On August 28th, 2014, while helping my grandma sort and purge certain things at her office, I came across Lily's autopsy. Lily is the baby that I am holding in the photo above.
I found the autopsy report and began reading it. I was shocked to realize that they found alcohol in Lily's blood. The caregiver, one of Mom's friends, had no explanation for this. Was Lily murdered?
In this report, the responders indicate finding her dead and that on Lily's bedroom floor were cat and dog feces. I then read Autumn's autopsy report.
For all I know, my mom may still be in some sort of a group or cult. Protection services told my mom to find Lily, a caregiver, because they did not want any more trouble with my grandma. Babies like Lily who die are never documented as wards of the government because they drop their duties to protect them when clearly they need protection.
We never knew Lily existed until after she was born and put in the care of this woman- but Protection (Social) Services knew. With what they knew, they had an obligation to protect her and not abandon her. They knew my mom couldn't care for her, so why would any of her friends?
This particular friend I knew and had her own kids taken away from her at one time. This woman also wanted to be a foster mom and never passed the home study done by them, yet they helped my mom give her interim custody of Lily. So tragic for Lily.
No justice-at least yet!
She did not die of SIDS, as Lily also did not. They died of neglect and NO CHILD PROTECTION.
I want Autumn and Lily, who have passed tragically, to also have their voices heard and others like them, whether they be heard from their cribs or graves.
Missing and murdered Aboriginal children and women is a national tragedy, and our babies dying needlessly and tragically is also. Any inquiry needs to include ALL BABIES like my sisters and children like my siblings and me. All of us deserve a national inquiry!
The genocide continues without help from our parents. Parents like mine need holistic rehabilitation services made available as an alternative to jails or to be there when they've served a "hard time."
We children also need rehab. What do we do with our rage as children when professionals deny what has happened to us? Well, we act out; in the end, we become criminals!
We have so much anger and rage that needs to be addressed. This cycle must STOP. The Healing MUST begin.

A baby had already died in her care a year earlier. Autumn was the first baby she'd had since that tragedy. Too bad for Autumn. The pathologist pointed out that the probable cause of death was likely due to "a low therapeutic dose of Phenobarbital and that she likely took a seizure and suffocated" (face-down) because that is how she always slept, face-down.
So why did the provincial Coroner rule her death as undetermined?Since Autumn was in the care of protection services, how did they determine that a Coroner's Inquest was not needed? Grandma had her lawsuit going on and added Autumn's death as a wrongful death, so could that be a reason?
The judge admitted in court that he had not read her autopsy report as new evidence, nor did he have any intention of reading it and was not going to allow this evidence in to support her new pleading. Why????Autumn has not received any justice, at least not yet.
Some of my documents are attached to my website, which were filed with the court in an attempt for me to be added to my grandma's lawsuit. In addition, the doctors', child psychiatrists', psychologists', and expert witness reports are mostly attached under the "Our Reports" tab.
When other reports generated by public servants or government professionals whom they contracted denied my accounts of what happened and maligned my grandparents, they sought their own reports from professionals. My drawings and other documents provided to the authorities by my grandma are there also. There is no sealing order, and we are now of age.
As an adult with a child of my own and someone who is still healing, it is time to lend my voice for more closure to my past trauma and to let others who are still out there suffering hope.
Vulnerable children like I was, without being rescued from an environment such as I was in and without the support of loving and caring guardians, competent doctors, counsellors and teachers, to name a few, will become your next set of criminals.
If governments do not get involved, these cycles will be perpetuated-a new batch of abused children, broken homes and violent criminals.
LISTEN TO THE CHILDREN! I wish protection workers had believed me. I hope my story will ensure you, who are protection workers and police, will ensure our protection, prosecute our abusers, and provide them rehabilitation.
They need safe and loving homes for them & secondly, government-supported rehab intensive programs.

Why do social workers, prosecution teams, examining doctors, and a psychologist believe someone like my grandma's observations and my accounts of what I told her happened to me to be unbelievable?

Why would my grandma influence me in what I told her about their killing babies and hurting Jonathan and me and the other kids? It makes no sense!

Why did they not provide me with a psychologist or professional therapist to "get to the truth"?

Now my VOICE will be heard! I hope you are listening and me and others will be believed. This website is to get my story out so others who have gone through or are still going through abuse and trauma receive validation of their experiences and provide for them HOPE that they can come through such abuses. I describe what I still remember in my legal documents (Affidavits). The power of MY SUFFERING continues to fade, but certain memories of it will never fade.

As I told my mom a few years ago when she told me that she could not remember the babies being killed, I definitely remembered this, and what happened to the babies is burned into my memory forever!

Dr. Peter Matthews, the one child psychiatrist who knew what happened here, told my grandma that I would not lie or maintain such a lie unless someone threatened to hurt and harm me or those they loved if they did not maintain the lie. I just wouldn't tell at first since I was threatened not to tell, in particular, Grandma, but when I began to relive the horror, and I felt safe enough, I began to tell my grandma what happened.

I now know how Regina Children's Justice dragged its feet to get Jonathan and me examined, taking over 500 hours to see us, which convinces me they didn't want the truth.

Note: If the vulnerable's names are disclosed inadvertently, they are done so 'without prejudice.'  Full disclosure of names is filed with the court with no publication ban or sealing order. Transparency is essential.